Anil came from a small town has a gleam in his eyes to achieve something. Seeing the amount of freedom for the first time got him to another plane of living altogether. He did things like talking to girls, spending time with them, drinking etc. which he could only dream of a few days back. He then met Neha and instantly fell for her.
Below is the account of Anil’s mind where he is battling himself and somewhere knew that he can love her but to be together was…
Part of Anil’s diary
Date – 21st February 2017
Place – Delhi
“Falling in love is one of the most brutally awakening experience you can ever have. When you meet someone, you click with, it often seems like nothing else matters to you – it’s you and them against the entire world and doesn’t matter what others think. You constantly learn new things about each other, you share first-time experiences with them and you are hopelessly in love with all the little moments you spend together.
This is the time when you are far away from reality with your mind blocked as you are going through a lot of things the first time and enjoying it to the core. Your mind is in a vacation mode not ready to listen to anything that is logical.
But everything has an end and so does this time when you come back to reality and realize that there is no future and what should be done next?
Now the dilemma arises that, do you stay with someone you’re madly in love with, even though you can’t see them being till the end? Or, do you leave, because you don’t want to waste your time on someone who cannot give a solid foundation for a future with you?
This makes you worried about every little thing – overthinking situations that may not happen for years to come – but, they matter in the long-run. How can you truly know what the right move is and what is to be done in a situation?
The truth is – there is no right answer.
There is no universal truth to dealing with these kinds of situations. You can love someone with every inch of your soul and they can still not be the right person for you to spend your rest of your life with.
It’s up to you to decide.
Are you willing to stay with someone you love, because you love them, and risk everything else? Or It is the fear of having to start all over again with someone new holding you back from doing so?
It takes some time for you to realize that you don’t have a future with the said person in a way you want and hence you start to see bigger flaws, issues that will hinder their growth and the growth of the relationship and eventually realize that it will not work out.
Now here is what I think –
Just because you love someone with all your heart and mind doesn’t mean it will work out perfectly in the end. No relationship is perfect. Every couple has their own issues, problems they need to fix and work out. That doesn’t stop people from being together, though.
Don’t stay with someone just because you are both already comfortable with each other and you don’t feel like walking away and having to restart it all over again with someone else.
Stay with someone because your love is strong enough to overcome struggles, obstacles, battles, and change. Stay with someone you are willing to compromise for and who is willing to do the same.
In the end, it is two of you who have to stay together and live a life”
Writing this cleared a lot of things in Anil’s mind. He was clearer now on what should be done. It was 6 AM in the morning and he left for his morning walk with a lot of thoughts on the things to come…